Tuesday, September 4, 2012

I Hate To say!!! I have The big D... Word!!!

Yeah I have it!! I don't like it at all, I must say. I have DEPRESSION 
I don't even like to say it and I haven't even been officially diagnosed with it . I know I have it. I pretty much can sleep all day long and then more. Thank goodness I have Dustin to help me cause I think I would never leave by bed.
When Hunters accident first happened I could not sleep at all. I would close my eyes and relive that horrible morning and that day that changed my life forever. So I didnt sleep.

Then one night I could finally sleep. I saw Hunter in a dream, he told me that he was fine and in such a beautiful place, he said that he was with my grandpa, he was good and he didn't want me to be sad cause he was so, so, good. 
He was so bright and glowing ( he always was anyway ) but really happy.

Revelation 21:4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

I think in someway that this is why I am depressed. I want to see Hunter again like I did in my dream and dream of him. : (I know and truly believe Hunter is in a better place, He still is with me and this is  one of pic that makes me know it. I am going to make it a goal to do better!! maybe I need to get up and start working out? lol :) ill let you all know how it goes..
LOVE,LOVE,LOVE

Went back to strawberry (that's where the accident happened) and shining on the mountain on or around the spot it happened, was this amazing ray of light coming from the clouds. Cole said look mom " Hunter shining down from heaven". and I know in my heart it was something he was doing..